Long Time

It has been way too long since the last time I have blogged. I have been a little busy, but yesterday's event on the military post that I live on woke me up (so to speak) yesterday.

It was a normal afternoon for me yesterday. I dropped Grey off at Mother's Day Out, went home to get ready for the FRG Meeting, went to the meeting, and came home. David and I enjoyed lunch together while Grey napped. I kissed him before he walked out the door and decided to take a nap myself.

I got a frantic phone call from Deborah to turn on the News there was a shooting. I thought it had happened in Killeen, but I turned on the News and realized it was right where I live, on Post. It was just a jumble, the News didn't really know what was going on just that there was a shooting. My heart dropped into my stomach. Here is the place that I feel safe! On post we have guards at every gate, it's a Military Post. I heard sirens going off to take shelter immediately. It was all so surreal. Phone lines were jammed and I could not get a hold of David. My instincts knew that everything was ok, but I just wanted to hear his voice.

I was glued to the News trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together. I was on the with Deborah, but calls started flooding in along with text messages, and Facebook posts. The calls would drop quickly and it took awhile to send text messages. David and I emailed back and forth because that was easiest. I appreciate all the calls of concerns because I was in my house by myself with the doors open and the blinds open like any other normal day. I closed the doors and locked them and closed the blinds. Poor Grey didn't understand that he couldn't go outside and was throwing tantrums. Jazzy wasn't any better she was whining the entire time. Fort Hood was on lock down. There was nothing I could do, but try to entertain my babies.

I was angry! How dare these man or men take away our sense of security and safety. If you don't believe in our effort in Iraq and Afghanistan then leave the military. If you feel the need to take lives to prove your point, TAKE YOUR OWN!!! As Deborah put it, don't be selfish and take other's family members. How true! We are not sure what the repercussions of yesterday's tradegy will be, but I have already heard from some other Army Wives they have armed soldiers outside of the elementary schools, and I assume all the schools. Not only do we have to worry about our soldiers when they are deployed we have to worry about their safety when they leave the door to go to work! I am deeply saddened and confused about yesterday's events.

Say a little prayer for the 13 dead and 31 wounded. We are gonna try to do what we can to help (give blood).